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  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Little birdies outside
  • Reading: This
  • Watching: MLP:FiM
  • Playing: The waiting game
  • Eating: King Vitaman cereal
  • Drinking: Distilled water
I'm a doctor now. A doctor of pharmacy, to be precise.
I'm otherwise not much more different than you'd expect.
One of these days, I'll start working on art more. I'm not sure which day it will be.
Thanks for keeping up with me, though.

Commission Project:
Below, my project for making 25 commissions of specific natures.
I have chronic indecision over what to tell artists to make of my character, and often just let them let their creativities wander over his shapeshifting abilities. Many, however, seem to dislike this kind of laissez-faire approach, so I will instead let artists I'm interested in commissioning select three numbers from the list that have not been selected, of which I will select the one that fits their talents best. Or something like that.
BUT WAIT, THERE'S MORE!
The subject matters, you see, will be hidden until completed. And each one is part of a cluster of topically-related subjects. The artist who selects and completes the last unfinished topic in a cluster will get a bonus gift from me! While I have prizes in mind that relate to each cluster's theme, some negotiation will of course be in order. Wouldn't want people to be stuck with prizes they didn't want, now would we?

So, the list (to be updated as commissions are filled in):

#1: Japanese Warrior Terra--completed by :iconfirefeathers:
#2: "Bayonetto" Terra--completed by :iconkazewolf:
#3: ??? Terra (reserved; awaiting)
#4: ??? Terra (reserved; awaiting)
#5: Pharmacist Terra--completed by :icondemicoeur:
#6: V Terra--completed by :iconwoodenbullet:
#7: ??? ???
#8: Hippie Children Terra--completed by :iconcaptain-trident:
#9: Fluid Druid Terra--completed by :icondragonbeak:
#10: Edo/Heian-Era Terra--completed by :iconredic-nomad:
#11: ??? Terra (reserved; in negotiation)
#12: JRPG Terra--completed by :iconjaehthebird:
#13: ???
#14: Bard Terra--completed by Mumu
#15: ??? Terra (in negotiation; artist in hiatus)
#16: Indigo Lantern Terra--completed by :iconstrype:
#17: Gentleman Romantic Terra--completed by :iconcmbutchy:
#18: Wistful Romantic Terra--completed by Fudchan
#19: ??? Terra
#20: ???? (reserved)
#21: Pack Pic (Terra, Shenro, & DarkShift)--completed by :iconangel-t:
#22: Shenro--completed by :iconneodokuro:
#23: ??? (reserved; in progress)
#24: Jazz & Terra--completed by Mumu
#25: Torque & Terra--completed by :iconangel-t:

Clusters (topics may be revealed prior to completion):
#1, #10, #12: I Think I'm Turning Japanese--GKWorld Prize
#2, #4, #5: I Just Play One ???
#6, #17, #18: Who Was That Handsome Fellow?--DVD Prize
#7, #13, #20: ???
#8, #9, #11: Your Name Makes More Sense Now--CD prize
#3, #14, #15, #16: By Your ???
#21, #22, #23: The AC ???
#19, #24, #25: Friends With Imaginary ???
  • Mood: Eager
  • Listening to: Traffic outside
  • Reading: This
  • Watching: Star Trek '09
  • Playing: Mungyodance 3
  • Eating: Mesa Sunrise
  • Drinking: PureLife water
Greetings, one and all, for it is 2009, and I have not updated this thing for nearly a year.
I think the phrase "my bad" would be in order.
Regardless--for those of you who still keep an eye on this, I have something on which I could use your input.

Next month, I will be presenting two panels on health-related topics at Califur '09, here in the scenic, smoggy, southerly regions of California.
But, I want to present the kind of things that would be likely to generate interest. After all, people don't usually go to conventions for furs, expecting to get health tips.
I'm going to make it as fun and wacky as possible, but I need to select topics as soon as I can so that I can see if I can get some anthro artists to whip up some art to go with the presentation slides--we'll be having PowerPoint projection on hand, y'see.
So, here's a list of tentative topics and titles thereof that I've come up with. You're welcome to select two (or more) from the list, offer different names for things already on the list, or even suggest a topic not mentioned here. What's important is that you describe what you think about this whole thing, so that I can get your input.

Existing Topics:
-Your Fursuit isn't Your Only Skin (dermatological issues for costume-wearers, and/or acne)
-Blubber is Best for Arctic Animals Only(weight loss, exercise, cholesterol, and heart disease)
-The Elixir of Life: Caffeine (health considerations regarding "energy drinks" and other sources of caffeine)
-YTD: Yiffually Transmitted Diseases (sexual health for furs)
-The Lion Sleeps Tonight (sleep, dreaming, sunlight, and insomnia)
-To Teas or Not To Teas--That's the Question (considerations regarding alternative and herbal medicines)
-Leave the Sneezing to Pawfeather (allergies vs. colds, coughs, flu, asthma)
-Because No "Bong" Is Good For You (adverse effects of alcohol and marijuana; may be expanded to include other recreational drugs, tobacco)
-Oh Noes! The Diabeetus! (diabetes, Type I and II--what they mean, who's at risk, and how they can affect you)
-Predator Breath Prevention Tactics (dental health and diet considerations for furs)
-The Eye of the Tiger (ophthalmic health, glasses, and contact lenses)
-Laughter Really Is Darn Good Medicine (mood-related issues, including depression, suicide prevention, meditation, and positive outlook)
-Furst Aid (quick-and-dirty life-saving tips)
-Post-Glomp Recovery Tactics (treating aches, sprains, and other pains)
-Run With The Gazelles (the benefits of physical activity)
-The Ways of the Desert Kangaroo Rat (heat stroke/exhaustion and how to recognize it; dehydration symptoms and treatment)
-When Furs Cook, You Feel the Burn (heat burn and heartburn, prevention and treatment)
-How Not to Tango With The Porcelain; or, Upchuck Prevention Pro-Tips (nausea, seasickness, and vomiting treatments)
-Your Funny Plunger and You: Poop Problem Prevention (diarrhea, constipation, indigestion)

I definitely need as much input on this stuff as possible, guys, so let me know what you think! And if you're willing to contribute anything to the final presentation (or know someone who probably would), be sure to let me know--I want this thing to have as much punch as possible!

-Terra
I do a lot of things on the Net--no surprise there--but one of the things I do most often is talk to people I know. Another thing I do is write a journal on my thoughts on concepts regarding faith, spirituality, and living. And I'm known to write occasionally.

So here's what I'd like from you--the rare people who read this and care to do it: I'd like to hear from you how you think I'm doing in a variety of areas. Give me a letter grade (A-D, F) in the following categories, by leaving a comment with them--or sending a Note, if you'd prefer to only let me hear your thoughts. Feel free to include any commentary with each that you think is relevant--I want to know your thoughts. Be honest. I don't mind if you're blunt--I can more than handle it.

Areas:

General Approachability
General Friendliness (i.e. once approached)
Transparency (i.e. what you see is what you get)
Drama Level (not how much I have, but rather, if that amount is satisfactory)
General Artistic Skill (should I be doing any art--even the non-drawing kinds?)
General Originality (Art, life, writing, character--however you want to interpret this.)
Loyalty/Trustworthiness
Honesty
Helpfulness
Online Presence/Effort (Do I do enough online to meet your expectations, whatever they might be? Comment.)
Humor/Entertainment Ability
Online Attractiveness (Do I seem like a person you enjoy spending time with online?)
Knowledgeableness (Am I a good person of whom to ask questions?)
Verbosity (Do I say too little, too much, or just enough?)
Verbal Complexity (Do I push you away with my extensive use of vocabulary?)
Personal Depth
Overall Community Worth (Does it seem like I do something worthwhile as part of our dA/anthro online community, or do I just seem an appendage?)
dA Journal Update Frequency (Do I need to update this thing more, or am I right in assuming no one reads it?)

With regards to my Meditations journal (leave this part out if you don't read it):

General Satisfaction (Do you find it worth reading?)
Practical Usefulness
Applicability (Does it fit you/most people, or is it too specific?)
Quality of Writing (Is the way the material written worthwhile? Comment.)
Rate of Update (I know I'm sporadic already. Is that okay with you, or do you want something more frequent? Does it need to be more regular? Comment.)

Areas requiring open comment rather than a grade:

Desired Art (What do you want to see more of from me, in general, and how much of it?)
Areas of Improvement (Tell me what things I should improve that weren't covered already, or which need more emphasis.)
Strong Points (What do I do especially well?)

I'd really appreciate your participation--I want to know how I'm doing. And yes, you may copy/paste this into your own journals if you wish--slaughter it as needed.
  • Mood: Eager
  • Listening to: Traffic outside
  • Reading: This
  • Watching: Clips of Drawn Together
  • Playing: Guild Wars: Prophecies
  • Eating: TJ's Honey Nut O's
  • Drinking: PureLife water
  • Mood: Eager
  • Listening to: Tim's wall-filtered Pandora
  • Reading: This
  • Playing: X-Men Legends II: Rise of Apocalypse
  • Eating: TJ's Apple Cinnamon Oatmeal
  • Drinking: TJ's spring water
Laaaadies and gentlemen!

Terra's got another crazy idea.
What else is new, right?

My laptop got thrashed something fierce when the IT staff at my hospital rotation site got careless and knocked my laptop-containing backpack off a high computer desk. (Just one of the many reasons I dislike gravity.)
As a result, I have ordered a new one, but it looks like I'll be able to get a "skin" for it to cover the outside top panel.
I've browsed through the site's offerings, and while there are a fair number of alright designs available, none of them are things that make me go "I want THAT on my new laptop! <3"

This is where you come in.
It's possible to make a custom skin on this site by uploading an image. And since I'm a picky customer, I definitely want to customize.
What I need from all of you are ideas for wallpapers (since that's about the size of the skin) that I could use on this thing. By "ideas," I mean actual files (or links to them), whether or not they're something you created yourself. However, if you -do- create them, feel free to add a watermark or something in the corner--that way when people see it, they'll know some amazing artist did it and might go check you out. Free publicity!
HOWEVER.
This laptop will be going with me to presentations and so forth, so it has to be something that is fairly benign and acceptable to the general community. It can't be -too- loud, nor can it be over-the-top furry--this is pharmacy we're talking about here.
Also, the laptop itself is black, so something that isn't too blatantly vibrant is probably the best choice to prevent major color clash.

If a design you submit to me is something you made yourself and I use it, I'll compensate you for it (especially if you made it specifically for this), so keep that in mind. I'm not trying to pillage the lot of you for free stuff. However, if it's not something you made, it wouldn't exactly be fair to pay you for it, now would it?
For those of you who aren't sure what general things to look for, have no fear! Here are some themes I like:
Celtic
Tribal (incl. tattoo-like designs)
Abstract
Fantasy
Animals (esp. wolves, dragons)
"Techno" designs (e.g. complicated and energetic semi-abstracts/3Ds)
Gorgeous landscapes
GOOD ART

Remember, this is going to be about wallpaper-size (15.4" diagonal), so whatever you submit needs to be wallpaper-sized and resolutioned too or else it's gonna look hecka grainy when blown up to that size.
Show me whatcha got, people! The vanity of my laptop is at stake!

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Potluck Tourney! Entry still open!
Long Story Short: A textual roleplay tournament in which everyone donates a prize, so that everyone wins a prize!
Click the banner for the current list of entrants and prizes!
  • Mood: Triumph
  • Listening to: Cars on the I-5
  • Reading: This
  • Watching: Phoenix Wrong
  • Drinking: Crystal Geyser
It's time for another one of Terra's crazy ideas!

Announcing the Potluck Tournament 2007! For all of you who like to engage in role-play combat, listen up, because this is the kind of thing you're interested in.

Brief Summary: A character-based textual roleplay tournament in which all entrants must donate one of the prizes in order to participate, thus ensuring that all entrants receive at least one prize at the end of the event. Entrants will also be power-balanced by a method to be determined by the organizer to ensure that all contestants are capable of winning the tournament.

I have observed two problems in our little dA community: 1) an underproliferation of gifts and good will, and 2) a lack of rewards for people who do well in RP events, regardless of end-game status. This tournament is designed to address both problems.
To wit, this tournament is one that requires all entrants to donate a prize of some sort to be awarded to another player at the end of the tournament. The organizers (so far, that'd be just me) will examine the available prizes and arrange them according to what accomplishments will earn them (ladder rank, best style, etc.), thus dictating in advance what placement at the end of the game will win what prize (rather than just handing them out willy-nilly). Though almost anything within reason will be accepted as a donated prize, the organizer reserves the right to disqualify any particular prize entry. Examples of acceptable prizes include artistic commissions (including, but not necessarily limited to, music, visual art, or written works), used but working electronics, music, or video games (donor must be willing to ship to end recipient), or gift certificates/other donations of quantifiable value, such as dA subscriptions. Please note that there is not necessarily any lower limit in terms of the monetary value of an item.

Also, for those people feeling exceptionally generous but not inclined to fight, Sponsorship is available. Sponsors donate a prize to be used in the tournament and can thus either pay the entry fee for another person, or become the "Patron" of an existing fighter, giving that fighter an edge in battle--possibly up to an extra tournament elimination, depending on the perceived value of the prize. Sponsors also get all kinds of adulation, audience rights for any matches they'd like to observe (non-tournament audience is not allowed during matches), and a nice wave of warm fuzzies and probably good karma for doing something nice. Patron prizes will generally be turned into "Title Prizes," which will be given out to people who distinguish themselves in battle regardless of end-game ladder rank.

Full tournament rules and regulations can be found at this [link] <right-click and then select "Save Target As">.
The tournament will likely be held at the beginning of summer, to help ensure that all participants have as much time to devote to the matches as possible, but if we get enough people it may happen sooner! Full charsheets will be required in advance of the tournament.
Watch this page for updates!

Entry remains open! Sign up for the fight or Sponsorship by e-mailing me at MadSci565(AT)yahoo.com, or by dA Note, or by IMing me! Good luck to all!

Enrolled Entrants (donations designated):</i>
:iconstrype: Strype
:iconnaota1288: Arnica
:iconkalenidus: Kalenidus
:iconvapor9: Osric (sponsored by :iconnaota1288:)
:iconnatsume-san: Natsume

Interested Parties (donations not yet selected): </i>
:iconmackalexda: Torque
:iconkrugeri-leo: Kru(/Diaego?)
Feeling generous? Sponsor the entry donation of one or more of the above people and earn audience privileges, plentiful laud, and lots of warm fuzzies all around--not to mention publicity!

Prizes Entered (these could become yours!): </i>
Visual arts commission, inked and colored, one-character, winner's choice of setting, by :iconstrype:
Short story from :iconnaota1288:
1 lot of (Up to) 50 Euros' worth of an online purchase
1 copy of the video game "Bioshock"
1 6-ft. Mexican bullwhip
  • Mood: Cheerful
  • Listening to: The Ramen Song
  • Reading: Scads of IMs
  • Playing: Dungeon Runners
  • Eating: Grape Hi-Chew
  • Drinking: Moo Juice
It appears to be a dA custom that birthdays must be loudly announced.

So break out your Monty Python "It's--" guy and party poppers...

Because I turned twenty-one today.

I went to a brewery/pub/restaurant for dinner, and my beverage was a nice, tall, cool glass...
...of whole milk.
I loved it so much that I splurged and had two.

I'm so glad it didn't give me brain freeze. I would have had a terrible headache the next day.

My sister gave me Munchkin Fu 2: Monky [sic] Business, to go with Munchkin Fu 1. Best gift of the day.

Now I shall bask in scanty compliments.
That is all.
  • Mood: Triumph
  • Listening to: Loituma--Ievas Polka Remix--d[-_-]b
  • Reading: Notes on Medications
  • Watching: Last night's Heroes Episode
  • Playing: Guilty Gear XX Accent Core
  • Eating: Food, of many sorts.
  • Drinking: TJ's Green Protein smoothie
Y'know that one song that goes "There is a season--turn, turn, turn..."? It's based upon Ecclesiastes, which is one of my favorite books in the Bible. You can find out more about that if you visit my Meditations page [link] , but I'm not here just to deliver such shameless plugs...entirely.
Rather, it's just that a lot of things are shifting in my life that I hadn't expected. This is not an inherently good thing, and given my choice of "species" one could argue I'm kind of asking for it, but change (within bounds) can still definitely be a good thing. It simply means that I need to re-equilibrate, and then I know I'll take off.

I like getting to spread my wings like that. I've been feeling a little cooped up.

In other news, I've been taking aikido this quarter. It's such a liberating art, and while I'm having to re-learn a lot of things I -thought- I knew (I took it briefly a while back, but I was one of only a few students back then, and thus I had a lot of time to work solely with the sensei, which any martial arts student can tell you usually means you learn more quickly, assuming the sensei is good), it's definitely worth it. And it's taught through our Rec Dept., which means it's a lot cheaper than most places. Though the student complement is...unique...
I'm thinking of taking Shaolin Kung Fu here some time. Or maybe Capoeira...or maybe Wing Chun. (Yes, our school offers all three.) Input, anyone?
I also tried to do NaNoWriMo this month, as I do annually, but my recently-purchased PDA (another new development) somehow mis-synchronized, causing me to lose a massive chunk of progress on the novel, making it impossible to finish within the month if I didn't skip all classes (including that final exam yesterday...) until then. Guess which priority won.
Incidentally, I hate it when people put a question mark after a sentence telling people to guess. It's a command--not an interrogative.
Anyway, I was kinda bitter about that, but I've since realized that it was an arbitrary goal and one that would have probably just overinflated my already edemic ego had I completed it, so it was a force-fed dose of perspective that I think was probably quite indicated.
Let's see, what else...new classes will be beginning soon, and I'll be glad of it, since this quarter's complement was rather irritating on the whole. Not worthless, no, nor devoid of learning, but certainly more work and frustration than I'm sure was absolutely necessary. Hopefully I'll also be able to get a position as an intern pharmacist at one of our local Target stores, but the HR departments seem to be dragging their heels, so we'll see how long -that- takes.
I've been attuned to reiki, so gimme a buzz if you want me to try using it on you. I could use the practice, and it's quite painless, non-invasive, all that jazz. Long-distance is supposedly possible, and I've been told before that I have some success using it as such, so I think it's at least worth a try.
Oh, I've also fallen in love with IKEA. It's like a carnival...made of furniture! One more reason for me to love those quirky Swedes. Ask me if you want to see my idea for pharmacy-izing the chain.

And, now that that vomitus has been expelled, I will also include a list of 10 Christmas-present-worthy things, as has been asked of me by :icondaswolf: and :iconkalenidus:. Here:
1. Any of the "Munchkin" boxed-deck card games, aside from the original, which is just called "Munchkin" (as opposed to Star Munchkin, Munchkin Fu, Munchkin Blender, etc.)
2. Basshunter's non-single CDs.
3. Ookami, for the PS2 (I hear this game is bloody awesome.)
4. Leather armor (i.e. spaulders, pauldrons, bracers, [link] ; hands not useful) for Amtgard (yes, I LARP--what's it to ya?)
5. Guitar Hero 2 and/or 3 for the PS2 (don't forget the controller!)
6. Cooking Mama for the Wii (it just plain looks fun)
7. A Bagel Guillotine (What? I eat a lot of bagels. Stop laughing.)
8. A necklace I found on eBay.
9. Another necklace I found on eBay.
10. Oakley's Cinder shoes, size 10.5/11, Black or Grey/Blue [link]

For your convenience/reference/amusement, items 3-9 can be located/viewed/laughed at my eBay Express page--complete with shipping address! Here: [link]
But this is, of course, assuming that anyone here actually reads this.
Which is assuming a lot.

Still, one never knows what of these I may be able to answer for other people...so it's worth a try.

Knowing me, I won't update this thing again before Christmas, so merry Christmas, just in case.

EDIT: OK, so I did.
I thought I'd mention that even though the forces of unintended data loss conspired against me, I still managed to finish my NaNoWriMo novel word count some time around 9 PM this evening--Nov. 30th.
On Wednesday, the 28th, I realized that 33,000 words were needed to complete it, and I had three days (including that day) to get it done. "Well, what the heck," I said, "I don't know if I can average 11,000 words of novel a day for three days straight with class and quizzes in between, but I guess I'll find out.
Evidently I can.
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Vi sitter Ventrilo och Spelar DotA--d[-_-]b
  • Playing: Guild Wars Factions/Nightfall
  • Eating: Panda Express Panda Bowl (Orange Chicken)
  • Drinking: RO Water
Hey, it's me. Big surprise, I know. I bet all of you are waiting with bated breath.

...psshyeah. You can stop holding it now if you were, but I know you weren't.

Anyway, this journal post is largely thanks to :iconkalenidus:, who tagged me with the chain meme thingie contained herein. I'm not generally one to respond to tags, but this one I kinda liked, in addition to the fact that the lovable liguar in question asked nicely. (Or at least I like to pretend that an end-of-journal tag was a nice asking.)
It goes a-somethin' like this:
You get tagged by someone else.
You decide to take part.
You list 8 random factoids about yourself that most people aren't likely to know and that you (hopefully) imagine will be at least remotely interesting.
You can specify, if you choose to do so, up to 8 other people to tag with the chain meme activity thingie. (I usually don't with this kinda thing, but again, I opted to make an exception.

Thus, with no further ado:
1. I'm kinda needle-phobic. It's probably because I was born prematurely, and as such I spent time in the neonatal intensive care unit with all kinds of needles and tubes and all manner of things that were probably neither pleasant nor painless. Thank God I can't remember all of it...but my subconscious apparently at least noticed, and so needles and other sharp pokey medical thingies still make me cringe somewhat even now. I don't pass out or anything major, but they make me notably nervous. I thus considered it a big accomplishment when I lanced myself quite professionally for our blood type testing in physiology lab...
2. I have this curious tendency to incoporate dance-like movements in almost everything I do, and it's only a semi-conscious thing. I'll just intend to do something, and little flourishes will somehow get mixed in without any conscious intent on my part. I have my own peculiar speculations about why this happens, but since it's all just hand-waving guesswork, I'm not so bold as to say I know the cause for sure. It really comes out strong in badminton, though.
3. I hate eating single, basic flavors. I must have a thing for total-tongue stimulation or something, because if I'm eating a food that has just like one taste element in it, I usually don't like it. I tend to mix complimentary flavors--and lots of them--whenever the opportunity presents itself. I often do this by taking small bites of several different foods available and cramming them all in my mouth at once, which probably looks kind of odd to other people but works for me. It's probably because my old college was vegetarian, and extremely blandly so at the time (I hear they've improved their quality and selection by hiring an outside firm to take over the cafeteria operations).
4. I both hate and love sleep. It's -such- a waste of time (like a third of one's lifetime!), but I need it so much in order to function well. I'm hoping to become a lucid dreamer so that I can reclaim at least part of my dreams for doing some exploration and adventuring of my choice, rather than simply letting my odd little unconscious brain farts run their course.
Incidentally, I cannot "nap."
5. My imagination is more fertile than you would ever believe. Seriously. I have entire worlds cooked up in this head of mine. I tend to explore and flesh them out further when I'm doing things that don't require much higher-brain concentration, like walking or driving or doing the dishes or using the restroom (that includes showers, mind you). I'm really, really good at taking existing seeds of ideas and expanding upon the original themes to create huge and intricate setups. I would make a top-notch video game producer, as such (if I may so boldly claim so), if Nintendo or whoever would let me have a go at it...
6. I feel that I have some kind of latent metaphysical gift(s) that go(es) beyond the simple (but useful!) gift of intelligence that I have. It's a completely existential feeling of mine--I have nothing other than personal, mystical experiences and intuition to back it up--but I find it impossible to ignore, and so I'm hoping I can figure out how to unlock and unleash whatever it is (assuming, of course, that it's actually there after all).
7. I love visual art, and I can imagine well countless things that I would love to draw, but I have this weird semi-perfectionist thing going on that causes me to hate most of what I draw because it's not good enough. Couple that with the fact that I don't have time to spend hours and hours fine-tuning a drawing that has problems that I can notice vaguely but not specifically identify and/or fix, and you have most of the reason I don't have much in the way of visual art up here. I'm a lot better at expressing myself with words for the moment, as you may know and/or have noticed, but I hope I some day learn how to use graphics as well to uncork my creative outflows.
8. I have strong idealist tendencies. In part due to my fruitful imagination, and in part due to innate tendencies on my part, I often find myself imagining ways I wish the world would be or become, and then the extended effects of the simple premises around which these ideas are built. It makes me somewhat excited to get to eventually be in the future, because I'm eager to see how much (if anything) of what I've imagined might come true. I'd love to see a utopian society, but the unfortunate fact is that we humans are far better and wrecking things than improving them, and as such I don't think we can ever really make such a society, since it would require real (and thus flawed) people.

Hopefully that gives you some food for thought. I'd like to tag :iconkensukethecat:, :iconophidia-black:, :iconsteffyweffy:, :icondarktrigger:, and :iconall-that-jazz:, since I'm not sure if it would ever get to some of them. (It probably still won't, as most of them probably don't read this.) I don't feel like I need an entire compliment of eight, though, so I won't bother with that. Of course, if -you- want to do it, I'm not about to stop you.

In other news, I'll be leaving for San Diego (yes, I'll be attending grad school down there, as most of you have likely heard by now) on the 21st of this month. :icontremorwolf:, :iconswampwulf:, you have been officially warned. Perhaps we can aim to set up a carpool for FC? If not, I still expect visiting privileges of some kind--people tell me you folk are interesting but nice.
  • Mood: Mesmerized
  • Listening to: Sverige--Basshunter
  • Reading: The Oracle (aka Wikipedia)
  • Playing: Fiesta; Wii Sports
  • Eating: Ohana Hawaiian BBQ Chicken Katsu Bowl
  • Drinking: Passion Fruit Orange Guava (POG)
Beware all ye who enter here. Fanboyish raving and journal-style-pilfering contained within.

You have been warned.

Seriously.


So for some time I've been wanting to get a Wii.
You know, that one white and shiny video game console with the motion-sensing remote.
No, you can keep your inappropriate jokes. I don't want 'em.
*ahem*
Anyway, for those of you who know about the current situation on this product, you know that it's extremely hard to procure. It's not that Nintendo tried hard to create a shortage of them (unlike our dear "friends" over at Sony); rather, they created a really good product, at an attractive price (compared to its competition), and they apparently just can't make enough of them, nor fast enough.

So I had this fat Best Buy gift card that I got from my graduation, and I was thinking about what to do with it, when my intent to purchase a Wii came to my recollection. Fantastic idea, says I.

Then.
I had this one dream where :iconkazewolf: showed up in a dream I was having (which is an impressive feat on his part because I've never actually met him, and he lives kinda far away to just show up like that), and handed me a Wiimote with some urgency, telling me I needed to use it posthaste. ("Use it wisely!")
It turned into a beam-sword-kinda-thing, and then I used it to vanquish me some bosses before I woke up.
IT WAS A SIGN.
Or at least so I told myself.

Then.
I spent several days calling our local Best Buy. Each morning, I was turned away from my phone with the inevitable "No, we don't have them." Which was always like fhkgjlshf for me.

Then.
Wednesday rolled around, and I was working a long shift in the pharmacy at my target. I took my lunch break, had a nice lunch at our Sonoma Valley Bagel place, and then realized I still had some time left. So I whipped out my cell phone (it has a camera now, which I've scarcely used except to take pictures of stuff on my computer screen so I could use it as a wallpaper on the phone--go figure), called up Best Buy, and got no response for ages.
I finally got bored and realized that it would be quicker just to walk over there, 'cause it's in the same shopping center with the Target where I work. So I did.

I made my way over to the video games section. Using my powerful sense of direction, or something like that, I located the location of where they keep Wiis. (I didn't even have to ask a sales floor lackey. Go me.)
It was almost an accident, actually; I happened to look down, and there was this simple white box that said "Wii" and had a hand holding the Wiimote, along with one of those alarm things that almost looks like a gift ribbon except techno. I wasn't sure if it was the right thing at first.
But.
IT WAS SO MEANT TO BE. I GOT THE LAST ONE.
There was this strange old guy kind of gazing off into space, but in like the same direction as the box. I asked him if he was going to buy it ('cause I'm so nice like that; I actually would have let him have it if he'd said yes), and I kind of startled him by asking, but then he said no, and I popped it under my arm and whisked it off to the front lanes (but not before stopping at the nearby TVs island to make sure they took checks).
I wanted to hug the cashier. I'm not sure if that's alright, even though she wasn't particularly cute or anything.

I didn't let the thing get more than 50 feet away from me until I got home from work later--it chilled with me and the pharmacist in the pharmacy until I went home that night.
The funny part is that when I brought it in, the pharmacist (who was a lady; we have like a different pharmacist almost every day at our store 'cause there's such a shortage of Target pharmacists in our region and so they're all floaters 'cause I'm pretty sure it pays more that way) got all surprised and told me that one of her husband's friends gave them a Wii as a wedding present.
She'd been kind of quiet (dare I say even chilly?) that morning, but after that she was a lot more talkative and friendly.
WE TOTALLY BONDED OVER A VIDEO GAME CONSOLE. lol nerds in da pharmacy. <3

So now we play Wii Sports at my house every so often. I need to get more games, 'cause I can only Tennis so much. Plus I need to play a game that my mom can't try to make me let her play alongside. (Yes, I'm being greedy with my game box. Wouldn't you be?)

My Wii Friend Code is 7674 1704 0291 7950. People from here should add me so we can be Nintendo Nerds together, and Mingle our Miis and all that fun stuff. (My Mii Parade is empty and that makes me sadface.)

Other stuff: I'll be moving to the San Diego area in September 'cause I'll be going to grad school down there. Any of you live down there?
Ohana Hawaiian BBQ is a very tasty place to eat.
Stardust is a really good movie that you should all go see. Not as good as "V For Vendetta," for instance, but still really good.
Basshunter makes some of the best dang techno you can ever listen to. And he's Swedish, which gives him additional bonus points. Go Swedes.
My friend Kyle, brother of :iconophidia-black: and longtime best friend growing up of mine, is coming to visit next weekend, which rocks my socks.
And we got a weird little miniature poodle in March because our old one died (I should probably have mentioned that). He's really weird. Cute as all get out, but really frustrating, too. But at least we gave him an otaku-worthy name: he is "Tobiko," after the Japanese sushi topping of the same name and hue--"Tobi" for short. Hopefully he'll start being sociable like a NORMAL dog one of these days. He's so skittish...I hadn't noticed how bad it was until we visited old neighbors of ours and their little poodle was actually pleased to see me. I felt like I hadn't seen a real poodle in months.
  • Mood: Stuck
  • Listening to: READY STEADY GO--L'arc en ciel (FMA OST)
  • Reading: The Oracle (aka Wikipedia)
  • Playing: WoW
  • Eating: Pepperidge Farm Milano Cookies--Orange
  • Drinking: Crystal Geyser (aka bottled tap water)
As usual, I will begin by musing about how blitheringly long it has been since I updated this. <emofest> Blargh. </emofest>

Moving on, I will be graduating next month, attempting to find labor for the summer (but likely failing due to the saturation of the labor market with people who practice my trade in our area), and then attempting to procure housing in San Diego for my move down there in the fall (yay graduate school). It's going to be one heck of a ride.

Things in my life, eh? Yes, I'm sure you want to know, you people who assiduously follow my writings here. All...one or two of you. Maybe. I've taken up World of Warcraft lately (you can find me on the Bladefist server, primary character Mithrandias, but I have a bunch; I play Alliance because I don't like Orcs or Undead and that's half the Horde right there), which absorbs ten tons of my leisure time but I like it anyway. I've actually figured out that it's probably cheaper than buying and/or renting as many games as I would have in a comparable period of time, which is kind of strange but oh well.
I've submitted three of my poems for publishing in our school's annual lit/art publication "Quicksilver." We'll see what kind of (if any) reception I get for them.

I still want to become a better visual artist, but I think I've probably resigned myself to the fact that it's not going to happen in a milieu that saps virtually all of my motivation (i.e. the college I presently attend) to do anything worthwhile. The burnout has piled itself to an impressive height. I will be -so- glad to move on.

I updated my LJ, for those of you who are interested in it but didn't know. I'm hoping to make it more of a habit again.

I'm in a weightlifting class this quarter. I think it may actually be doing something (albeit something slight) for me; I'm hoping it builds habits I'll keep up.

I've had some pretty curious emotional states lately. I'm still trying to figure them out; more news as events merit on that one.

And sleep. Zee oh em gee sleep. I miss it so much; there is both never enough in the world, and never enough time for it amidst the millions of other little things I do.

So yeah. Lots of hope for things yet unseen. I guess it's one thing I never -really- let go of, which may or may not be one of my strengths, depending on if I'm right about that. But I press on, always, because the future looks so exciting.

-Me
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: North, Pt. 2 -- Afro Celt Sound System
  • Reading: The Oracle (aka Wikipedia)
  • Watching: The Time Warp (again!)
  • Playing: Maple Story
  • Eating: Mochi
  • Drinking: Guava Saboricos
I've always thought that February was a bizarre month, to say the least. For starters, it only has 28 days (for at least .75 of all years, at any rate). It also has a weird pronunciation (when do people say Feb-ROO-air-ee?), and it has one of the holidays which I have historically liked least: Valentine's Day. (This is not because I have a thing against people who enjoy celebrating it, but because it's become way too commercialized. And, I never get to celebrate it with actual valentine-people.)

But enough about that. It is the season of many pharmacy school interviews, and that fact, combined with the absurd number of things I usually do these days, has led to a notably tired me.
In the midst of this, I'm striving for a reorganization of time and effort. I need to focus my willpower to help make up for my general drain on motivation (it's called "burnout" or "senioritis," depending on who you talk to and in what context), and I'm hoping that I can redirect my time and energy while doing so into things that I want to do to better myself and others, rather than wasting as much time and energy as I have been of late.

I've begun to post weekly (mostly) thoughts on faith, God, and worldview at my LiveJournal. Some of you know where that is, and I encourage all of you to go look at it, even if you have to ask me to figure out where it is.

Amtgard is still as wonderful as ever. I never would have imagined I'd be amongst "those people in the funny clothes with the foam swords" at E Park each Saturday, but now I feel so much at home with them that I shall be rather sad if I will have to leave them at some point. As Baronial Court Bard, it is my duty to ensure general morale, compose humorous (and sometimes satirical) ditties, and, on occasion, perform. You have no idea what you're missing, people.

As is typical of me in these journals, I also wish to express resolve towards learning to draw better and so forth. I'm hoping that I'll be able to contribute a piece to that Elemental Dance Meme that's going around before everybody forgets that it exists. We'll see.

I've also begun to formulate a number of experiments into the human mind, psyche, and other interesting pieces of what make us unique beings. If you'd like to be a part of them, contact me and I'll fill you in. No, you won't be compensated (aside from good karma or something, if you believe in that), and no, they won't be painful (unless you try to make them that way). You may find from them that you learn some things about yourself that you never knew.

And I graduate in June. How bizarre to think that such is the case. After that, it's a summer of uncertain employment, followed by (almost certainly promptly) pharmacy school. Life really can throw you fastballs with extra spin sometimes.
Still, I love wearing the graduation gown. The cap is pretty sweet, too, but it gives me the worst hat head you ever did see.

-Me
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Katamari Fortissimo Damacy--Katamari March
  • Reading: Textbooks galore
  • Playing: Amtgard
  • Eating: horrible vegetarian Caf food
  • Drinking: more water than I used to
I yoinked this from :icondaswolf: because it was neato, and because I was getting tired of looking at my last emo post.

Step 1.

Make a post in your deviantart journal. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real-life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Step 2.

Surf around your friends list (or friends friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just... wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

Step 3.
(The List.)

1. I'd really like intensive, long-term art lessons from some of the artists I'd admire. I want to learn to skillfully draw my ideas so bad, but I need serious encouragement and instruction.
2. Some kind of serious Palmtop or Tablet PC. I could seriously use the note-taking schedule-making skillz of this sort of doohickey.
3. A Nintendo Wii or DS. I'm so far behind on the whole video game console biz, it's just sad. (Incidentally, I dreamt last night that I playtested a Wii. It's weird, 'cause I've never touched one before.)
4. I'm in need of all manner of supplies and skills (sewing skills, especially) to produce the garb and weapons I need for Amtgard (a local medieval/fantasy-ish LARP that I enjoy altogether too much). And believe me, the variety of things that I could/wish to use is extremely wide. Any help here would be appreciated, though you should let me know what you have in mind, since some things may or may not do me some good. (A set of hakama pants would be excellent for starters.)
5. Comfortable noise-cancelling headphones. These would be astoundingly helpful for the countless scenarios in which I want music, and not everything else that happens to be clouding up my auditory space.
6. Funding to set aside for my Furtress Project. Some of you know of this plan of mine--to create a compound for budding artists to live and work in, as a social community--and it's going to take a lot of time and resources to realize it. While it won't be happening any day soon, a little money set aside now could become something a lot greater when the suitable time is reached.
7. I'd wish for an awesome Christmas, filled with friends from here and elsewhere, and at a distance where we could all be in one room, able to physically hand gifts to each other. However, I realize that an event such as that would be virtually impossible, so I'd settle for a way to have my best friend-family, the Wruckes, come visit me, or even just my friend Kyle from that family, for the Christmas season. I don't know how the plane tickets would be covered, though...
8. I'm interested in delving into lucid dreaming, aikido, capoeira, and reiki more than the dabbling I've done so far. Resources, training, attunements, etc. would all be appreciated.
9. Henna body art kits. Lots of them. All I need is the henna mix and the applicators; I don't need like weird little bindi gems or whatever.
10. World peace. Or, eBay Gift Certificates.

Thanksgiving was atrocious, but that's life. Only a few weeks of school remain 'til the glorious Christmas break, so that's good. Catch y'all on IM or wherever.

EDIT: I swapped out number 8 'cause it seemed kinda dumb to ask for hair coloring. Additionally, I have pharmacy school admissions interviews coming up, so I'll probably not be able to risk having anything but extra-conservative hair. Bo-ring. And I tried to change my mood emoticon but the lil box thingie isn't working right.
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Katamari Fortissimo Damacy--Katamari March
  • Reading: Textbooks galore
  • Watching: events pass by
  • Playing: at ability
  • Eating: not enough protein
  • Drinking: no ethanol
Things have been hectic lately. So much to do, and so little time and energy with which to do it.
...

I've been sort of fading away with dealing with it all. When I try to do so much, I end up losing so much that I have little strength to put into my personality. I become distant, perhaps irritable, terse...
...faint.

The weeks demand so much with regards to school. The weekends offer scant rest and little enjoyment, often containing labor (as though I needed more).
...

I'm doing NaNoWriMo again this year, but I don't anticipate finishing it in time, given what I have to deal with. Still, small miracles do sometimes happen. Ask me on IM for the file if you want to read it in-progress.

I apologize if I don't seem all here lately; now you should at least know why that is.

Additionally, I've started a series of postings that I call Sunday Meditations, and which should be weekly, provided I don't further lose it. You can read them at my journal.
The summer is technically over starting Thursday; my classes start again on the 26th--that is, a week from today. It's strange how much longer a summer can seem when you spend it in a generally displeased state.

But enough of my complaints: you're probably tired of hearing them, whoever you are. School begins again, and with it a new setting, a new roommate, new duties, and new opportunities. I tend to be a sucker for novelty, particularly when the "same old" is getting rancid, and so even though I know it's gonna be a lot of work, I find myself (strangely) looking forward to it. (I can assure you that this is not a normal feeling for one such as myself, ordinarily.)

Though my tablet had been non-functional for quite some time, the recent procurement of a replacement tablet pen has apparently remedied that flaw, and I am now capable of using it again. I've become aware that it's actually a rather pleasant pastime, and as such I believe I am willing to accept some requests from some people.

Yes, I know, it's shocking. Considering my general n00b-ness with regards to general art, it's rather audacious of me. However, I want to cultivate skill, I need practice, and when someone else is involved, it helps motivate me to get it done. (Maybe some part of me thinks it's selfish to just make art for me. I don't really know.)
However, there are conditions. For example, if you randomly schmaltz over to my page and request something, and I have no idea who you are as a person, it will have to be some kind of idea that really lights up my board before I even touch my tablet for it. On the other hand, if you're a close friend and you ask for something that I think I can draw, I'll take a smack at it.
I'm not the most rapid of artistes, so whatever is requested may take a while. Additionally, I have this nasty tendency to spontaneously get sick of art part-way through making it, so I may also have to cancel requests I'd previously thought I could make with no difficulty. Hopefully, I won't run into that much, though.

If you have a request, you can make it here as a comment or by sending me a note; I may or may not respond to them, depending on a number of factors. Whether or not I directly respond may not have any correlation to which requests I actually execute, so you know. (I like to surprise people sometimes.) Most requests will be attempted in openCanvas, as I need practice with that medium, and may or may not be colored. (Chances are likely I'll -try- to color all of the ones that make it that far, but then I might come to the conclusion that my ability to color doesn't do a piece justice, at which point I will remove color and simply give the requester the relevant lineart.) Bear in mind that the more complicated your request is (not "complex" so much as "complicated," here), the less likely it is I can make it work, even though I may take a smack at it anyway.

And moving on, I'll be working three or four jobs this quarter in addition to my courses (though none of them will be full-time, thankfully), so I may be astoundingly busy. We'll have to see.

Cheerio.

--Me
Finals are over, I got straight As, and mom graduated. Time for the relaxing, carefree days of summer!
Right?

Wrong.

My dad's decided I'm going to have "8-hour work days" at home doing Bob knows what until I'm employed somewheres (which is something I'm actively pursuing, mind you--I can't help it the people never call when I'm home). So don't be expecting to see much of me in the near future, folks. 'cause apparently I'm gonna be working.

Also, my laptop's in the shop for repairs. And I think I'm coming down with some kind of sore throat thing.

If you care, great. If you don't, I don't wanna hear about how much more horrible your life is. Constructive comments only.
Less than a month since last update! Gasp upon gaspage! How can this be?!
OK, enough melodrama. The primary reason for this is a tag from :iconmackalexda:, but then I figured that I might as well talk about other stuff while I'm here.
So, two weeks ago, we had frost (I kid you not) on the roof of Financial Services and other assorted campus buildings. Now it's a veritable summerland, with temperatures spiking into the 80s (Fahrenheit, of course) and the requisite humidity and bugs. We had wasps getting into our bathroom somehow last week, which is always a...surprise.
I'm thinking of carrying out a double major next year--and you can stop it with your dirty jokes, thank you. We'll see how it goes, 'cause it would mean a whole bunch o' courses added to my workload, but I know I probably could do it.
If I can ever replace my tablet pen, I might be able to, like, draw something. It has me in this sort of art-omen-'d state, or something. I have the money in my PayPal, but since I have no credit card, the company won't take my money. (You'd think I'd have the opposite problem, but nooo.) Rawr.

OK, so for the tagging quiz thingie--
6 random oddities about me:
1. I have been an otaku of some form or another since I've been conscious. I told this little old lady once (when I was young) that the time of my life that I couldn't remember was when I was living in Japan.
2. I am fascinated by the complexities of human existence, thought, and action. This is part of why I love philosophy so much. (It's also why I love sociology, literature, psychology, art, etc.) I tend to grill people for information because of this, though I don't think all of them are especially happy about that. I am a scientist/philosopher/investigator by blood, spirit, and who knows what else. It is an irresistible draw for me, and I savor the knowledge I can procure (so long as it's interesting/relevant).
3. I have an extremely powerful imagination. Most of my time when my conscious thoughts are not required to be focused on one thing or another, I enact in my mind various stories, ideas, etc. in which I am an integral player. This is part of why I'm a good writer: stories are a large part of how I exist.
4. I have a rather irregular voice. I'm not too fond of it in its typical, conversational tone, but I take on all manner of impressions and accents on a regular basis. I can, for example, imitate perfectly the refrain from Tiny Tim's "Tiptoe Through the Tulips With Me," complete with over-dramatic falsetto. (I could probably sing the rest, too, but I don't know the lyrics.)
5. I love to live drama, as in acting (not teen social angsts). I tend to be highly expressive when speaking, moving, etc. and have a tendency to infuse dance-like motions into normal movements all the time. (You should see me play badminton. I get all these weird spins and stuff that look quasi-choreographed and yet are completely unplanned.)
6. I have all kinds of crazy things I'd love to do with my hair, but I happen to have the kind of hair that you can do just about nothing with. Trying to force it into one conformation or another is like some kind of armed skirmish, and I usually don't have time or energy for that on many school days.

And now, I must tag some people, so as to propagate this delightful waste of time.
Therefore, I tag :iconphycowolf:, :iconwolfstar:, :iconmitofox:, :iconfalconmccooper:, and :icontidalnight:. If any one of them has already been tagged and/or done it already, don't shoot me--I can't remember who has and who hasn't any more.
Of course, most of them probably won't even read this to know they've been tagged in the first place, but oh well.

--Me

EDIT: I'm going to be putting up a whole bunch of digital photos I've taken, because I can and they're just sitting on my hard drive doing nothing. You have been warned, as your devWatch inboxes will appear to have been spammed after I am finished.
I figured that two months was probably long enough to go without updating, so here I am again. It's the beginning of spring quarter, so that means new classes and all that stuff. I'm presently sick with some kind of cold or whatever that I got just before we left for San Diego over our interquarter/spring break--it refused to be left behind.
I'm taking more units than last quarter, so I may be less accessible than before. We'll have to see. I'm hoping to find time/ways to implement art more regularly, but I'm not sure how likely that is.

I've been thinking a lot, really, and at this time I kind of wonder why I update this much at all. Those people who read it and respond are usually the exact same people who talk to me in other ways, and so communication is regular with them even when I don't update. On the other hand, people who don't read and/or respond to my journals usually don't talk to me much in other ways, and so I don't hear for them. If the primary reason for this is to inspire feedback, what's the point if no one who wouldn't already hear about my issues sees this?
Of course, I realize that by saying that, it makes the whole discussion moot, should I be correct.

Another thought is, of course, why people that I've historically talked to a lot just sort of...fade off into the sunset, or wherever they go. They still log on, sure, but I never hear from them on IM or whatever. It's like some sort of cosmic switch just flicked into the "off" position. Then again, as mentioned, such people are unlikely to be reading this, so perhaps it's another moot.

Anyways, on the off chance that someone cares, you have an opportunity to have your work featured in the esteemed Terra's Skin Gallery. Yes, that's right. Craft a good tattoo idea, and I'll put it on myself with henna if I like it. I'll then send you pictures of what it looks like, for posterity or portfolios or whatever. There are some details about what the image has to be like, 'cause you can't do just any old thing with henna, but I figure that those of you who are reading this can probably get in touch with me about that. Ideas that I absolutely love to pieces may be rewarded with a henna kit, courtesy of yours truly, for your personal experimentation. But again--we'll see.

--Me
Happy Chinese New Year, kids. We went to Chinatown in San Fran today to catch the local scene for the special event, and it was absolutely wonderful. I don't know about you, but I have this big thing for cultural immersion experiences--especially when Asian cultures are the ones I'm experiencing. On the surface, it didn't seem all that amazing--we only saw one instance of lion dancers, didn't get to light off any strings of firecrackers, and had lunch in a sort of hole-in-the-wall bakery. (Some of you may know, however, that many of these are positively divine anyway.) We were only there for maybe 3 hours (I suspect less). And yet...in that time, it was like an entire different world to live in. I attempt here to put it in words. (Warning: existential linguistic blather. Skip it if you can't handle stream-of-consciousness.)
Leaving the car, coming face to face with waves of humanity, fenced into canals by the high walls of the city's distinctive architecture. Signs bedecked in ideograms. Banners strung across the street, spanning the currents of life cascading down every asphalt stream-bottom. Small shops, easily missed, tucked into the neverending storefronts. The smell of incense in a hazy shop. Sing-song stories in a language not exactly familiar. Random acts of hospitality from people of a different history, unknown yet friendly. Sipping tea as the doorbell never ceases to ring in the bakery. The sound of drums, samisens, Chinese harps, streaming from just around the next bend. So much red, the color of blood, the color of life, hoping for luck to flow like rain onto the people. Dragons on the lampposts, waiting to banish the night with their light. Community, unity, people all together for one thing, civilization within chaos.
Not wanting to leave, not to be apart from so much love, so much life, happiness in modesty, ritual and celebration intermingled. Hope for the future. Dreams of the past. All as the city around cradles it, sheltering it from the uncaring outside.

I just felt I had to get that out somewhere. I drank in the day, and it made me high on life like I haven't been in ages. A fitting way for a furry to ring in the Year of the Dog.
I bought a thing of New Year Buns from the bakery to give to people. I'm just miffed that I can't give them to you people, because there aren't very many here that I'd really like to give them to. Even so, it's traditional to give them to others as a token of good luck and good wishes, and that is what I intend to do. (Even though eating them all would be quite tasty.)

It's been a weird time lately. So many things happening, of natures allsorts. Ups, downs, all arounds...confusing in some ways, and yet priceless for the value they all have. If I sound strange, don't worry--I'm OK. However, that being said, you may find that I still sound different than what you'd normally expect. A passing phase? Perhaps. I can't tell for now. I may simply be changing, but I do know that I'm happier in general (even without cultural festivities) than I've been in a while, and I like that. I'm hoping to figure out the hows and whys, but that's not as much of a priority as making the best of what I have now.

I'll stop with the emo babble now, and post this interesting survey thing that Dazzy passed on. Forgive me if it makes me seem easily swayed.

1. YOUR NAME SPELLED BACKWARDS?
Arret? Or would you prefer a different one?

2. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Of the opposite...? Gravy...I don't know how to qualify which one's best.

3. THE LAST THING YOU DOWNLOADED ON TO YOUR COMPUTER?
This lil file a friend of mine sent me...a game demo thing.

4. HAVE YOU EVER LICKED A 9 VOLT BATTERY?
No, but I sometimes laugh at people who do.

5. LAST TIME YOU SWAM IN A POOL?
I think it was at least like...last year, if not earlier. My neighbors had a summer barbecue/swim party thing. And the little neighbor girls commented upon how dreadfully white I was. I'm not planning to do that again soon.

6. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY?
Many times.

8. TYPE OF MUSIC YOU DISLIKE MOST?
Country, along with Dazzy, and the hodgepodge that is rap/hip-hop/R&B (a combination which I refer to as The Black Arts).

10. DO YOU HAVE CABLE?
At home, yes. At college, no.

11. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN ON A MOPED?
No.

12. EVER MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL?
No, and for some reason no one actually says anything when doing one to me. They just hang up.

13. BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?
None, though some have wanted to be/thought they were.

14. WOULD YOU GO BUNGEE JUMPING OR SKY DIVING?
Not bungee jumping. Skydiving...maybe if someone else was paying for it.

16. DO YOU HAVE A GARDEN?
At home.

17. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE COMIC STRIP?
I have no one favorite. I do like Zits, Bizarro, and VGCats, however.

18. DO YOU KNOW ALL THE WORDS TO THE NATIONAL ANTHEM?
Yeah, though maybe not in order.

19. BATH OR SHOWER, MORNING OR NIGHT?
Shower, night. Baths get cold and ick.

20. BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE LAST MONTH?
The only movie I've seen in the last month was "Fun With Dick and Jane," so it was technically both the best and the worst.

21. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPINGS?
Garlic.

22. CHIPS OR POPCORN?
Crackers?

23. WHAT TYPE OF DEODERANT DO YOU USE?
I've actually been given several different sorts in the past, and I just use whatever happens to be with me wherever I happen to be. I've actually never had to go out and buy my own deodorant, weirdly enough.

(24 goes where?)

25. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A BEAUTY PAGENT?
Puh-leeze. They pay people like me to stay away.

26. ORANGE OR APPLE JUICE?
Orange can be good, but only without pulp. (You shouldn't have to chew a beverage, nu?) Apple is usually better.

27. WHO WERE THE LAST PEOPLE YOU WENT OUT TO LUNCH WITH?
My dad and sister, earlier today.

28. FAVORITE TYPE OF CHOCOLATE BAR?
I don't really like chocolate bars much, but I'd say maybe Crunch, 3 Musketeers, or 100 Grand.

30. LAST TIME YOU ATE A HOMEGROWN TOMATO?
I hate raw tomatoes. Our homegrown ones just look scarier, and so I stay even further away.

31. HAVE YOU EVER WON A TROPHY?
A few, yes. Not very important ones, though.

32. IF YOU COULD BE A CARTOON CHARACTER, WHO WOULD YOU BE?
If you consider Terra (my fursona thingie) a cartoon, then he. Otherwise, perhaps WarGreymon or WereGarurumon. Or Maes Hughes of FMA.

33. EVER PUNCHED SOMEONE IN THE FACE?
No, but I sure know how.

34. EVER ORDERED FROM AN INFOMERCIAL?
No. I hate them and want them to die.

35. FAVORITE VIDEO GAME?
I couldn't possibly pick just one.

36. HAVE YOU EVER HAD TO WEAR A UNIFORM TO SCHOOL/WORK?
They instituted them for part of my brief stint in private school. I loathed them so.

37. LAST THING YOU BOUGHT AT WALGREENS?
We bought...eggs, I think.

38. EVER THROWN UP IN PUBLIC?
Thank heavens no. But there have been some close calls.

39. WOULD YOU PREFER BEING A MILLIONAIRE OR FINDING TRUE LOVE?
With true love, I wouldn't *have* to be a millionaire. I could probably face the world with no trouble at all with my love backing me up.

40. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
I do, with qualifications. I don't believe you can know instantly that "that person there is the one." I do, however, believe that what you instantly perceive can grow over time and become love from what happened at first sight. I realize that sounds rather inconclusive, but I don't really care.

41. CAN EX'S JUST BE FRIENDS?
Yes, but not always.

42. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU VISITED IN THE HOSPITAL?
My sister. I had to bring her stuff.

43. DID YOU HAVE LONG HAIR AS A KID?
No, but I'm trying to make up for lost time somewhat now.

44. WHAT MESSAGE IS ON YOUR VOICEMAIL MACHINE?
Call it and find out.

45. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO GO RIGHT NOW?
Ireland or Japan might be nice.

46. WHAT WAS THE NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?
Our first pets were fish. We didn't have names for them, particularly because none of them possessed any notable longevity.

47. WHAT KIND OF BACKPACK DO YOU HAVE, & WHAT'S IN IT?
It's this off-brand thingie...Ionik or something. It has my binder and a couple of schoolbooks in it.

48. LAST INCOMING CALL ON YOUR PHONE?
'twas my next-door neighbor, asking to speak to my roommate.

49. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU ARE GRATEFUL FOR TODAY?
To live in this world at all, rather than to somehow be aware of never having seen it.

50. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MOST?
Anything. Everything.

The end.

--Me
Right, so, if you're not one of those people who knows Japanese (by virtue of supreme otaku-hood or some other spiffy talent), that title means, if translated with syntax intact, "Birthday is!" I say this 'cause, yes, it's my birthday. Whee. (Forgive my relative deficit of enthusiasm, but current events coupled with a lackluster opinion of the whole birthday thing make me rather apathetic.) I received, from my family (surprisingly enough), Xenosaga Episode II. It is my intention to go and play it to death after I finish the first one, which I'm still working on. (So...crazy...long!) It scares me that this sequel has 2 discs, though, considering how much they crammed onto one in the first game.

Moving on to things slightly less nerdy--Christmas, spent in southern California with the relatives, was probably the worst yet. If you wish to know more, you can ask me on IM, but I'm not really in the mood to declare it to parties unknown at this time. We saw the "Narnia" movie, though, which was quite splendid (even though some artistic liberties were taken that I disagreed with slightly). We also saw "Cheaper by the Dozen 2," which, like many paperback novels, is worthwhile for killing time and slightly entertaining, but nothing especially great.

New Year's Eve was quite quiet, but we'd just returned from the trip/ordeal/thing that day and weren't in any particular party-hearty mood. I just would have liked to have some actual friends to enjoy the peaceful evening with me, but such is life. *le mini-sigh*

Some people we know have been worried about us 'cause this part of NorCal apparently experienced quite a drenching whilst we were away. Fear not: our home and healths are all intact, even though our sanities are slightly round the twist (not that that's especially abnormal for us). Some of the roads near our town are closed off, though, 'cause the Russian River overflowed and some pavements buckled and some mud did the sliding thing and other such overabundance-of-rain-related things occurred in the general vicinity. No big.

And some other goodies may cause me to have new things to post, but I'm going to leave them be for now. You'll see when I'm ready to let you see. :evillaugh:

Miscellaneous links that I don't care to retype right now live in my previous journal. Go look at them. Because I said so, that's why.

--Me

EDIT: Because it seems that only three people have thought much about the above, I decided to tack this fun lil character thing on the end of this and let it be a non-minor edit, which means everyone will see it in their devWATCH inboxes again. If it's a problem...oh well. It just seemed like awfully soon to be making an entire new entry.

Right, so the character thing:

1. What is your character's name?
Right now, it's just Terra. I could come up with titles 'n whatever, but his name itself is independent of titles.

2. What kind of character is it (furry, anime, etc) and any particular race?
Terra is a shapeshifter, somewhere between furry and therian, but usually assumes a heavily-customized canine-like appearance.

3. What is the first thing your character would think of when he/she first wakes up?
If Terra would be similar in this aspect to me, the typical action would be to rehash the preceding dream. However, it is probable that Terra would be able to effectively send his consciousness elsewhere during sleep, so he'd probably be planning his day as his awareness returned to his awakening body.

4. Your character's favorite outfit would be?
Terra morphs his fur to make pseudo-outfits, so there's no need for one favorite. When in roles that call upon his abilities, fancy and outlandish things, such as the one showcased in Strype's representations, would be common. For everyday work, cargo pants, pockets, and other such amusing oddities would usually be present.

5. When your character looks into a mirror, what's the first thing they would notice?
Terra believes strongly in self-expression, and so he'd be checking to make sure that the individualized look of the day had been properly carried out.

6. Does your character have the same tastes in food as you?
Yes, except more expansive. Being able to shut off one's taste buds at will can have its benefits, especially where healthy (but nasty-tasting) foods are concerned.

7. How is your character similar to you?
Terra is an expression of my thoughts, ideas, and dreams, and so we share a lot of facets with regards to mentality. Terra would share my thirst for knowledge and my curiosity for people.

8. How is he/she different?
Being able to control reality on the quantum level is certainly a major quirk, no? Additionally, Terra would probably be more disciplined, level-tempered, and multi-talented--products of his more extensive ability to learn and observe. Terra's appearance could be customized to look just like me, should the situation call for it, so appearance isn't necessarily a difference.

9. If your character could speak, would they have the same voice as you?
Sometimes. The shapes and sizes of the vocal cords and cranial cavities is ordinarily the main factor determining a person's voice, but these are at Terra's whim, along with the end sound (which can be modified by changing the sounds "post-production," so to speak). As a result, Terra would be able to have the same voice, but probably wouldn't for most purposes.

10. If you were to suddenly become your character, what do you think would be the first thing you would do as them?
I'd explore the capabilities that I've thought of, and see if perhaps I'd more of them than I'd anticipated. These would be integral to deciding what to do later with my new form.

11. Is there something about your character that you don't like how others think of them?
I'm not sure I understand the question. However, most people gripe that Terra is too powerful, and in some ways, I agree. Yet it is the purpose of Terra's power that I highlight--he is not combative by nature, and his powers are primarily intended that he might use them to more effectively aid others and to learn new things in new ways.

12. What advantages does your character have over you?
Any list I'd come up with would be too long, and yet not comprehensive. So I won't try here.

13. What disadvantages?
The only disadvantage that comes to mind is that he wouldn't experience the life that I've ahead of me, supposing I became him--no matter how many memories he delved into, a future un-made is a future impossible to see.

14. Do you have any secrets relating to your character that only you know?
Yes. Very very many of them.

15. Do you have any secret drawings only you know about?
No. Someone knows, in some way or another, about all of my drawings that are worth noting.

16. Do you have any plans for your character or are you working on something big relating to him/her?
I have loads of plans. These plans, however, are contingent upon my becoming skilled enough to execute them--a precarious proposition.

17. What misconception(s), if any, do people have about your character?
Many are led to believe that he's just a fruity-looking wolf or fox bishie. This is a bit far removed from the truth, but I can see how that mistake is made.

18. If you could have just one characteristic from your character, what would it be?
The quantum-control abilities. However, these would essentially enable me to become most or all of Terra, so that might be cheating. If I couldn't have that, I'd go instead for the mere shapeshifting, which is nifty enough.

19. Have you made any characters that go along with yours, based on real-life people, that have the same relationship with your character as you with the real-life person?
I have not, though the people I know with existing characters I sometimes "write in," as it were, into my imagined plotlines, while maintaining their in-character personalities and relationships to Terra.

20. Have you written any stories about your character?
I've started a few that work him in; none of them are yet finished. I have yet to write a full story totally about him. I intend to place him into my "Fursonified" poetry series some time, once I find proper words.

21. How has your character changed since his/her first creation?
Terra is still evolving, primarily in terms of abilities and appearance. Terra originally had much longer hair (see "Envy" from the cast of Fullmetal Alchemist, whose hair is oddly similar, though this was purely coincidental as I'd not seen that show when I first imagined Terra) and was a bit more vicious at heart. Because Terra is so inextricably tied to my own journeys and emotions in life, he will inevitably change over the years. I doubt there will ever be a "definitive" Terra, but that's part of why he's a shapeshifter.

22. Give us a one-liner from him/her.
"Treasure your personality...it's all that separates you from me."

23. Weaknesses and Drama.
Terra's weaknesses lie in his friends, for he trusts them. This does not mean that betrayal = death. However, they will be able to take greater liberties than people whom Terra does not trust. Terra enjoys watching drama, and even being part of it when masquerading as another. Terra enjoys being a moderator for RP (convenient, too, given his plethora of abilities), as it allows him to watch how people interact and innovate in an action-driven environment. He himself is not given to drama, however, aside from drama as theater (which he is quite good at, incidentally).

Dazzy sez:
"I demand everyone do this...cause their interesting and fun :3"

You heard the lady. Get to it.

Additionally, I'm interested in working with people, RP-wise, as a moderator or outfitter. (Combat is also a possibility, but not especially likely.) IM or note me about it if your curiosity is piqued.
For those of you who have been eagerly following the events (or lack thereof) of this last month in regards to a certain me-person, you know that I have been busily working on a 50,000-word novel, which has gobbled up most of what I had that passed for a life.
However!
This is now over. Hooray, woo, confetti!
Ahem.
The novel is still incomplete. I got a little too wordy, and now I'm maybe halfway done, plot-wise, even though the vital 50,000-word mark has been surpassed. That being said, you can find my Literary Works page (where the novel lives) at this [link] , or you can just ask me for it on IM, or send me an SASE (if you're so lucky as to know where to address it) for the disk, or something. I think, though, that if anyone sends me a llama asking for the manuscript to be delivered by Peruvian llama post, I might have to print out all however umpty-odd-many pages it will be by then. This is assuming that you can even get the Peruvian llama postmaster to listen to you. (I hear he's a rather cantankerous fellow. Try red wine.)
Additionally, my philoso-blog was updated just around Halloween, but I never bothered to say anything about that. Go gander it at this [link] .
Finally, I am glad to say that I may well start making other arts now, having been refreshed and stimulated by a month's hard noveling. Eat your hearts out.

--Me

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